About that notorious aspie arrogance, it's not true what they say about it. Autistics imitate neurotypical behaviour and can overshoot completely. These people can be labeled as being arrogant, obnoxious, or eccentric. In reality, we're very gentle natured, compliant, and calm. I may not agree with societal standards but I'm still a law abiding citizen. I can come off as a know-it-all but I'd be a hypocrite if I stood for egality yet thought of myself as better. I see everyone as equals. Self-righteousness can be a prideful downfall.
"Pride comes before the fall."
- Spanish proverb
Here's why there can be an egotistical misunderstanding between neurologies: autistics have a higher than average fluid intelligence. Fluid intelligence is the ability to solve new problems, use logic in new situations, and identify patterns. In contrast, crystallized intelligence is the ability to use learned knowledge and experience. This can be frustrating from both directions. Autistics don't understand why neurotypicals can't think outside of their learned education and neurotypicals can't understand why autistics struggle with regular education.
"Education is what remains after one has forgotten what one has learned in school."
I'm an out-of-the-box thinker. My gifts are best utilized outside of the public education system. Autistic children are said to struggle with imaginative play but that's not accurate. Not being able to communicate your imagination doesn't mean it's not there. My mind has inestimable connecting links for every idea; this allows me to play with words. Word play, they call it; words are always at play. I give you my word, it's an aspie's play structure inside a ward of our brain. I can play it down if you word to join me. As you can tell, autistics love puns. Autistics are the most imaginative people I know. With the right tools, they can soar to great heights. Knowledge is the train while imagination is the airplane.
"Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere."
- Albert Einstein
I'm doing relatively well for myself in life. I'm starting to make a name for myself in the autism community, and to a lesser extent in the modelling world, but it would be arrogant for me to believe that I did it all on my own. We all need support. God knows I need it more than most. I have an invisible army backing me up: spiritual leaders, friends, family, and perfect strangers. Anytime I'm struggling with something, there's always someone I can reach out to at the touch of a button. Like I've mentioned before, my condition keeps me very humble. We all have insecurities. You have to remember that my blog only includes the parts of me I choose to show you. It's rare to grow up autistic without having your self-esteem damaged. No matter how many people love and support me today, I can't help but think that they would have rejected my 12 year old self. I am perpetually twelve, after all. People can't tell you're insecure if you fake it really well. Eventually, true confidence will follow. What helped me accept me for who I am was seeing others not care what others think, more specifically, the LGBT community. People advocating for their rights have the fiercest characters I've ever encountered. At the end of the day, everyone just wants the same thing: acceptance.
"To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself."
- Thich Nhat Hanh
How can I boast about my worth when the world doesn't value me? Despite having a strong personality, I know my place. I'm but a mere mortal like you. Autistics aren't better or less, just different. As for Margo, she writes to help free them from the ego-centred constraints of society.
[Link to my blog post "The Girl Who Never Grew Up" that will explain my perpetually twelve reference http://www.lifeaspermargo.com/-my-blog/the-girl-who-never-grew-up]